No Sunshine

What sustains a friendship?

• Is it the amount of time you spend together?
• The number of times you were there for each other through bad times?
• The activities you indulge in together?
• The fact that you share secrets with each other?
• Having common goals and interests?

So what actually sustains friendships? This is a tough nut to crack, which many would feel that they know it well enough. Why does it seem that you would get marked for the slightest mistake you make or even some unintended negligence given? Yet for all the times you were there for them, they just choose not to remember? What does one get out of just remembering all the bad things?

Does being straightforward mean that you are bad? That you are not doing the right thing to a friend? Shouldnt friends be straightforward with each other? I personally feel that it is important to tell my friends things that are true, and not say things that will make them feel better at the point of time yet would sink back into the problem soon enough.

Life isnt a bed of roses whereby you could have all your worries/burdens/problems/unhappiness cushioned. Should we actually take things with a pinch of salt? YES WE SHOULD.

I really have no idea where this post is heading to, but I certainly have ALOT of queries that are in need of answers. Probably when im in a better state of mind, i'd draft out a proper post regarding friendship. My apologies, Sorry.

Yes, i know you missed me.

Yes, I know that there have been an absence of myself over the past couple of months. And I am sure Im back this time round for good and for long, and no, I did not shift. I merely created another blog for random thoughts and emotions.

Speaking of emotions, I had a terrible rough row with myself last night. All the weeping and sniffing of juices from the nose had got me a little sick right now. I dont have any idea why would we feel this way? The more you want to find out about your problems, it would just seem to run away. Knowing that you're finally noticing it and realised that something went wrong and that it is time to pay it attention? It would start to squirm away, wriggle out of your sight, making it hard for you to capture and have a good look at it. Yubb, so this is what we call LIFE, this is what every regular human would go through, whether we like OR NOT, we would have to go through these crap that some greater force above us, somehow.. planned for us. Suck it in dudes.

On the other hand, I have a number of people on my list that i miss a whole lot. And i miss them emotionally. Sometimes too emotional that it would get me cranked up. But you and I both know that there is nothing we could do about a situation like this. What needs to come will eventually come, the more we want to fight it, the stronger it would crush us. Sad to say, we do not have a choice. How sad is that?

There are also alot of things I have piled up on my "to-do" list, I am hoping that I could take some time out for my personal stuff, for friends as well as for family. All I face now are books, books and books. Well, not exactly just books. But yeah, I am aware that I have neglected alot of little things, but I did not do it on purrrrrposeee. ((:

Well, nonetheless, the past few months have been great, I hope X: Got my grades and hopefully it would be consistent! I am trying hard to love the life now.

So.......... I'll see you guys when I see you.
-xoxo, tooooodles.