too much things

yaw.


oh no, so many to talk about..
hahah
1. CRM problems are all OVER
2. NO MORE COMtoolKIT
3. NO MORE IAC too!!
4. need to start MUGGING, like REALLY START
5. tanning and swimming with manda..
6. met with baby and friends.
7. tanning and swimming again.
8. MANLY things.



so 1, 2, 3 arent important anymore! so shant be elaborating on it.. will only be talking abt 4
onwards.


4. MUGGING.

ohmygawd... i really need to mug mug mug exams are approaching. like 3 papers, like 3 tough ones, like 3 moudules load of crap to memorise? and i MUST start SOON. yenn, discipline yenn!!


5. tanning and swimming

on thursday, did tanning and swimming with manda. we had the 4.30pm sun which wasnt really effective though, haha, then after swimming 50 laps and all we went home to bathe and i headed over to her place to do girly things.. we ended up trying on clothes, doing facial masks and online shopping spree!! and it all ended and i got home at 4am.


6. met up with baby and friends.

oh no, oh no. i really miss baby!! its been months since i last really hanging out with him and zhenlu and friends. met them at PUMA at marina square. HAD CARLS JR. FUCKING FULL..
baby packed half of his burger back because she simply couldnt finish.. ahha then we chilled at the open area and talked alot!! then waited for weiming to do closing and we walked over to suntec to catch a cab. then finally! cabbed down to jooseng to meet other friends.. saw kenny,arnold,yuyang and jiaqi there.. its been a long time too!!.. talked about life and all. till 5 am



baby and mommy! haha



baby!



puma's talent!



WTF



random again



action only



zhenlu mr WHY



coming out from the store... busy man



yuyang and jiaqi



mommy and baby!




7. tanning and swimming

yesterday, decided to tan and swim with manda again. not much sun though and there were like so any people at the pool. damn. then while tanning we're talking about how we want to revamp our room and all.. and why some designer sucks? haha! that was super random.. OH OH and we measure the pool' s length its 7 metres.. ooooooo... 7 tiles = 1 m and there were 49 tiles so it makes it 7metres... ahah then we planned for the night.


8. MANLY things

i went over to manda's place cos she needed help with some drilling, hammering, fixing, soldering so manly, but we still did it.. i hurt my leg because the heated flux fell onto my leg and now, its blistered..and i slept for quite a bit when manda was trying to fix her lappy and packing her things.



okaye sorry my totally messy room.



manda!



the holes that we drilled



ok first we used hammer then we used dumbell!



the walk-in wardrobe... haha



GHOSTLY




oh well i came home at 7am and im blogginggggg.. really tired now, need to get my sleep.!!

recap.

RECAP..

oh well i did quite a bit of catching up with a couple of friends.
well i met up with tiffany, and we chilled over at coffee club and started looking at people..
tiz was there too.!


then i met up with iris, lyn and seng the next day. felt really good about it haha! and its been a LONG time too. we had swensens and well what can i say? iris have been CRAPPING ME SHIT! hahha LOVE THIS BABE..



its been a while girl



and seng, with his earring



and babe again (=






and just on friday, i met jack. had dinner with his family... oooooo i just cant wait for his sis to deliver!!! so looking forward to that.. arghhh ok we went to tamon, a really good japanese restaurant. like one bento cost close to $30?? haha and a simple one too..



TAMON











well i didnt snap pictures, so i just grabbed some from esle where




then after, bala joined and we headed to highlander and drank up loads, next to shiraz, had more beer and sisha! OH OH OH there were belly dancers too! TOTALLY AWESOME! i swear jack had got his eyes stuck on them!! and the following day HE WANTED TO HEAD BACK THERE BADLY.. but... we didnt. HAHA
instead mai, bala, jacky and myself checked out MAMAS CARRIBEAN.. wasnt exactly GOOD as i thought. but stil not bad...



MAMAS



and last night, met up with sai and rayner, dined at joe's corner had fish and chips and sai had grilled salmon. we SINFULLY binged on cakes and ice-cream too! damn.... had a couple of pounds on alrdy. shitloads.

mug

mug.

now, i really need to START MUGGING. but i just cant seem to getting along with it.
theres a weird kind of repulsion. nonetheless, IM GOING TO DO IT.
by hook or by crook (:

prove to me u're REAL

why is this so?


why is it that im feeling this way? why is it that i cant put my finger to what im exactly feeling? and this is just so taxing of my energy. i cant point out my unhappiness because i dont even know how to say it. WHY??? why am i feeling this way? how come things are falling apart within me again? why am i feeling all so depressed out of the sudden? i dont know, i really dont know

i feel as if im at a crossroad.



after the conversations i had with my friend recently made me feel this way, that life's a bitch. he puts me down just like a snap. im always being expected to be like how others want me to, then it keeps me wondering when can i really be myself? when would someone put themself in my shoes? and when would someone really understands how i feel? hey dude, the things you say to me all these while has hurt me all the time. and whenever i try to share how i feel to you, it leads to nowhere. i feel upset of the way im feeling about our friendship, you might not know that you're actually pushing me away. and til one point of time, i will really go. we all have different personalities and characters, why want to force me into something else? not literally FORCE, but the words u used and the things u relate to me about just makes me feel that the conversation will always be stagnant. yes prolly u didnt say that im in the wrong. and whenever i say something, you'll always have your 101 reasons or statements to back you up. its hard, its really hard, i've tried to understand and change myself, but then when things dont get resolved, it makes me think to myself "why must i be someone else? and when can i BE myself?" no one would prolly be able to tell me this, because this situation is hard to fix. just so hard.


problem 3 is over too and which school would be from 8am-6pm BUT thankfully, anyway, btc project is finally over, crmaaron's plw tutorials are done! its just makes me feel a load lighter. today was quite a easy-going day, though its a wednesdaybtc and plw lectures were cancelled. that explains why. headed to al-ameen with kandace, atikah, serious and wayne. and i felt good hanging out with them, though sometimes i feel odd and i dont know why.



our BTC roof model



wayne getting cranky



atikah trying to be funny



karwah, OMG no comments



anyway this is a complementary pic of maipig and i (x



sighh, where are you? i've been waiting to talk to you the whole day, but where were you? till, now you haven called me. is this real??? is what we are having REAL? are you who you are? thats the confusion im having within me. please dont let me think the other way round, be like how u've portray urself to me please. i miss you. ):

electricfying

& it has been electrifying


oh hello once again, im back after afew days of MIA-ing. few days have past and im still in the same old situation waiting for the same old damn thing to end. its pretty funny at times, why things always turns out to be how u've never expected it to? and it just keeps you wondering why. yea pretty weird but thats just part and parcel of life isnt it?

friendship to me seems to have taken on a different perspective and still to no avail of perfect and most accurate answers, it leaves me blank and at lost. why is it that the GOOD TIMES only last for that lil short period and that after awhile, it ALL leads back to square one again. and thats just so dispiriting, you'll just find yourself lingering in and out of different situations. just how to make myself feel better and to solve it would be so destressing, and yet again who would know? and who would understand? dont bother telling me " i do understand, and i've been thru shit like you are now? well the fact is you dont, u've never been thru this SHIT.

another thing is, "you" i really dont know when you would actually start to heed my advices and change your mindset, it hurts me to see you behaving this way it also pains me to know whats your intentions are. we all know that this will never bring you far but once again, you're just living in your own world and self-denying. it really breaks my heart to know that, and i cant take it no more, YET again and again u'll be doing this and saying all this fucking crap. WHEN WOULD YOU ACTUALLY START UNDERSTANDING ALL THE FUCK I SAY??? WHEN WHEN WHEN? what do you even regard me as??? if i even mean a thing to you, why not listen?? WHY NOT? im harmless with my opinions and advices!!!!!!!! stop behaving like a fuck shit, if i dont care for you i wouldn't even be gaving a FLYING FUCK about you. DUMBASS!! wake up your FUCKING idea would you??? IT IS absoFUCKINGlutely DESTRESSING. you know?? you dont FUCKING know a single bit.

well anyway i went to sam's place for dinner, i waited for her lessons to end and took a bus together and her mum cooked asam pedas! delicious~~~ BUT her mum made me SO MALU, kept being such a good host and all, AND when i wanted to help with the dishes and brought the plates back to the kitchen she called me GATAL!! hahahaha then still make tea with pandan leaves and it was aromatic! NICE! kept me going for a few cups and with keropok and it is STILL DELICIOUS. so aunty if you are actually reading this post, or sam if u're reading this convey this: " AUNTY YOUR COOKING IS SUPERB! and i LOVE IT. (((: <333"



i kept wondering why our faces were red haha!



FAT FAT FAT me



still FAT FAT FAT haha



SAW THAT?? WTF

another 2 weeks

and its 2 weeks later



oh wells, bloggie seems dead after the previous longer entry, BAHHHHHHHHHH. hahaha anyhows, on monday i got back 2 of my common test papers which made me pretty suprise (: and thats because i passed them!! hahah 62% for ELS and 75% for BTC, and i must admit that i revised very last minute-ly. noticed i dont really talk about PLW? thats because i know i'd fail for that paper HAHA, not that i didnt do my revision for that, but because i forgot all my cases once i recieved that paper to start on. in short, im going for the 4 hours PLW revision class which im HAPPY about it, because i can study!!!

on tuesday, was baohui's 18th birthday, and we went to ramen 10 to have the birthday lunch then after, we strolled from far east all the way to cineleisure and chilled at the starbucks next to swensens for quite a while chatted with the girls ALOT, then walked over to plaza singapura and i bidded goodbye and headed to meet mummy. and i realised that mummy really put in alot of effort to pray for a change in me. sighh it just made me love her tons more and realise that if i dont start cherishing i'll lose them sooner than i can expect. sighhhh.

thursday, went to ********* and was told that results not out yet, and have to wait till 2 weeks later, its just so worrying and my heart just cant feel eased. i dont want to think about it but it just keeps flashing in my mind. im worried and im sad and im always thinking about it. and im not just only thinking about myself, im also thinking about **** i really am. im not forsaking but i just got no choice. and my heart ACHES so badly. sighhh i really dont know what to say anymore. because only i know how i really feel within.




i dont have a choice.


as people always says time can heal every wound. and i reall hope it can i dont usually buy this staement but this time, i would want to try to. geez time really flies, im meeting maipig and jacky for foot reflexology and steamboat laters!! cant wait.. ciao everyone!!

there might never be another chance

Hopelessly waiting



saturday was dimsum session at laguna national golf and country club located near xilin road. well the club was pretty amazing as we were looking over the golf area and the other restaurants, the pond, the spa room and some others, and it was good. anyway was with pearllyn, anqi, winson and jingkai. and we played abit joked alot and became all so crazy, i miss them ):



DIM SUM PLACE



LAGUNA!!!



loveeyyy



wooohooo



teeeheeee

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after dimsum i went to pick maipig and her friend, grace up from TP and went over to mai's place wanted to give grams and gramppy a surprise BUT they weren't home ): soon, jack came over, after awhile maipig and jack claimed that they were HUNGRY and was craving for KATONG LAKSA and look how hungry they were?




this was how hungry they were!

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then we headed to watch "do not mess with THE ZOHAN" it was HILARIOUS!!!!!! hahaha haha soon after we decided to have arabic food at aliwal street it was not bad just that the service was really slow and all. and then we cabbed down to katong road and chilled at DE BALI CAFE let me tell you this place is AWESOME.. haha let the pictures show u how amazing then (:





yea..



eat and go 1st storey



dining table



indoor fine dine 2nd storey



outdoor seatings



stairway to 2nd storey



smoking area



beautiful isn't it??


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maipig left earlier leaving jack and i drinking together, we had cocktails and beer chatted alot and left at about 2 am and walked all the way to still road, decided to sit at the bus stop and talk more, and i didnt know why i ended up crying badly and i shant talk about why.


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on sunday, i met jack in town to ate a little at DIN TAI FUNG ... FOOD!! yummylicious food and my all-time fav xiao long bao~~~ and the fried rice and the prawn dumplings too. woohoo you guys should try it mann. want to get tempted?? YES YOU SHOULD!!!




yes boy, i know you're hungry((:



while waiting for FOOOOODDDD



MY FAVVVVVV



prawn - meat dumplings



GOOD STUFF


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did a little walking after food in wisma, paragon and takashimaya, went to chanel and checked the bags out wanted to pick something for jacky's sister as a maternity gift, saw a $5000+ it was the perfect pick, classic and with a touch of elegance totally sexy!!! i love it.. after a bit we headed to the carpark to get ready to zoom to maipig house, grams prepared dinner!!! i miss them, because i treat them like my own grandparents. then again pictures to lead you proper (:




in the car



just so random



GRAMS!! and GRAMPPY!! i loveeeeeeeee this

after dinner, we went to MISS CLARITY CAFE TO CHILL, i had this chocolate cake with wafer and a vanilla ice-cream to go along with and a glass of mixed berries frizz, maipig as usual ordered her calamari and steamer (hot vanilla milk) and as for jack? he had a strawberry soda with a cherry in it. (((: what attracted us to miss clarity cafe was the decor and the concept. very kiddish!! you shall see alright?




introducing ---- MISS CLARITY CAFE!



dining area



side signboard



the area that we're seating



cute little displays




ok im lazy to elaborate further already. its ONE LONG POST