prove to me u're REAL

why is this so?


why is it that im feeling this way? why is it that i cant put my finger to what im exactly feeling? and this is just so taxing of my energy. i cant point out my unhappiness because i dont even know how to say it. WHY??? why am i feeling this way? how come things are falling apart within me again? why am i feeling all so depressed out of the sudden? i dont know, i really dont know

i feel as if im at a crossroad.



after the conversations i had with my friend recently made me feel this way, that life's a bitch. he puts me down just like a snap. im always being expected to be like how others want me to, then it keeps me wondering when can i really be myself? when would someone put themself in my shoes? and when would someone really understands how i feel? hey dude, the things you say to me all these while has hurt me all the time. and whenever i try to share how i feel to you, it leads to nowhere. i feel upset of the way im feeling about our friendship, you might not know that you're actually pushing me away. and til one point of time, i will really go. we all have different personalities and characters, why want to force me into something else? not literally FORCE, but the words u used and the things u relate to me about just makes me feel that the conversation will always be stagnant. yes prolly u didnt say that im in the wrong. and whenever i say something, you'll always have your 101 reasons or statements to back you up. its hard, its really hard, i've tried to understand and change myself, but then when things dont get resolved, it makes me think to myself "why must i be someone else? and when can i BE myself?" no one would prolly be able to tell me this, because this situation is hard to fix. just so hard.


problem 3 is over too and which school would be from 8am-6pm BUT thankfully, anyway, btc project is finally over, crmaaron's plw tutorials are done! its just makes me feel a load lighter. today was quite a easy-going day, though its a wednesdaybtc and plw lectures were cancelled. that explains why. headed to al-ameen with kandace, atikah, serious and wayne. and i felt good hanging out with them, though sometimes i feel odd and i dont know why.



our BTC roof model



wayne getting cranky



atikah trying to be funny



karwah, OMG no comments



anyway this is a complementary pic of maipig and i (x



sighh, where are you? i've been waiting to talk to you the whole day, but where were you? till, now you haven called me. is this real??? is what we are having REAL? are you who you are? thats the confusion im having within me. please dont let me think the other way round, be like how u've portray urself to me please. i miss you. ):