Post Examinations

Hey all, examinations for 2nd semester is finally over and just in a blink school will resume next week. So before the my 3rd semester starts, I would like to pray for more self-disciple, wisdom, better communication skills, higher tolerance, and oppotunities etc. In the coming 3rd semester, I'll be embarking on my electives and they are "Early Childhood" and "Counselling", and yes! I am looking forward for it to start! Alright, enough of school.

As you all know, Hari Raya is soon approaching, just in a few days time. For this Raya, everything just feels weird, it is very different from the previous 2 Rayas I celebrated. For the past 2 Rayas it was celebrated with Fadd and family. For this year, I wont be jalan raya-ing with Fadd, and it does feel weird. Nonetheless, I still bought my Baju Kurong, and it's black with purple and turqoise emboidery. But Im not really looking forward to it though.

Its been so long, things between the two of us is still so hard and dry. Why did all these even happened? If only I can go back to year 2007, I would have chosen not to go mustafa, and all these would have have happened, one thing would not have led to another. And now, I regret.

Vroooomm

I have been attending my driving lessons DILIGENTLY. This time round, its nothing like the previous times when I attempted to go regularly. I literally stopped going for 8 months, and now? I need to relearn everything! Oh well, nonetheless, its good for me. Helps to refreshes my memory, and drill and prepare me with driving and road experience. So far, the furthest I went was til tampines and because Im new to manual cars, I had to maintain at a slow speed, say about 60km/h?

And i found out that I have a very weak bladder! Well initially I thought it was just not as good as everyone elses' but I realised that Im not able to store as much pee as others could! like in 100mins, i need to visit the loo 3 times! once before the lesson starts, another visit, in the middle of the lesson and once more right after the lesson ends. Weak mann!!

Okaye, I dont wanna sidetrack too much and keep talking about pee etc.

So you might be thinking why am I being serious with learning how to drive this time round? That is because Im already 22! Getting older makes it harder for me to learn... okaye, thats not really the reason why. Its actually because of self-accomplishment, you see, when everyone passes 18 the first few things they wanna do will be things they were forbidded to do before they reached 18. (E.g. buying alcohol, ciggarettes. Partying, M18 movies as well as driving legally). And I have already delayed this for 4 long years! I feel that is it time that I should do something useful and helpful to the family, if I've successfully gotten my liscense, I would be able to:

1. Take my mom to her weekly doctor's appointment so that my sister could have enough time to settle her wedding preparations.

2. Help to do delivery when there are more than 1 urgent order.

3. When either my dad or sister is out-stationed, their cars would be free for use, therefore, I CANT DRIVE THEM!!

4. I can help to run some errands. ( Which I hope, I dont have to)

LOADS MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Okaye, I gotta scoot for practical lesson now! Update more when I have the time! CIAOS.

-You know you love me,
xoxo.

No Sunshine

What sustains a friendship?

• Is it the amount of time you spend together?
• The number of times you were there for each other through bad times?
• The activities you indulge in together?
• The fact that you share secrets with each other?
• Having common goals and interests?

So what actually sustains friendships? This is a tough nut to crack, which many would feel that they know it well enough. Why does it seem that you would get marked for the slightest mistake you make or even some unintended negligence given? Yet for all the times you were there for them, they just choose not to remember? What does one get out of just remembering all the bad things?

Does being straightforward mean that you are bad? That you are not doing the right thing to a friend? Shouldnt friends be straightforward with each other? I personally feel that it is important to tell my friends things that are true, and not say things that will make them feel better at the point of time yet would sink back into the problem soon enough.

Life isnt a bed of roses whereby you could have all your worries/burdens/problems/unhappiness cushioned. Should we actually take things with a pinch of salt? YES WE SHOULD.

I really have no idea where this post is heading to, but I certainly have ALOT of queries that are in need of answers. Probably when im in a better state of mind, i'd draft out a proper post regarding friendship. My apologies, Sorry.

Yes, i know you missed me.

Yes, I know that there have been an absence of myself over the past couple of months. And I am sure Im back this time round for good and for long, and no, I did not shift. I merely created another blog for random thoughts and emotions.

Speaking of emotions, I had a terrible rough row with myself last night. All the weeping and sniffing of juices from the nose had got me a little sick right now. I dont have any idea why would we feel this way? The more you want to find out about your problems, it would just seem to run away. Knowing that you're finally noticing it and realised that something went wrong and that it is time to pay it attention? It would start to squirm away, wriggle out of your sight, making it hard for you to capture and have a good look at it. Yubb, so this is what we call LIFE, this is what every regular human would go through, whether we like OR NOT, we would have to go through these crap that some greater force above us, somehow.. planned for us. Suck it in dudes.

On the other hand, I have a number of people on my list that i miss a whole lot. And i miss them emotionally. Sometimes too emotional that it would get me cranked up. But you and I both know that there is nothing we could do about a situation like this. What needs to come will eventually come, the more we want to fight it, the stronger it would crush us. Sad to say, we do not have a choice. How sad is that?

There are also alot of things I have piled up on my "to-do" list, I am hoping that I could take some time out for my personal stuff, for friends as well as for family. All I face now are books, books and books. Well, not exactly just books. But yeah, I am aware that I have neglected alot of little things, but I did not do it on purrrrrposeee. ((:

Well, nonetheless, the past few months have been great, I hope X: Got my grades and hopefully it would be consistent! I am trying hard to love the life now.

So.......... I'll see you guys when I see you.
-xoxo, tooooodles.

Poof

I dont know what to write. I wrote 2 relatively long posts and ended up deleting them. DANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

Everything we've had.

After keeping myself busy for so long, i finally came to realise that my heart is still aching over the past. Not that its love, but its just something left unsettled. It brings tears to my eyes, aches to my heart and also saddness to my mind.

Why cant 2 ex lovers be friends? Why cant we live amicably and be good friends? Why must we have such awful conversations with each other time after time? Why cant we have a proper talk and sort things out and then FINALLY be friends again? It hurts so badly you know?

I have to keep up with so many things happening in my life. I have to please many people thts surrounding me, I need to consider many factors before i even decide to do something. For the mistakes i've made before, im sorry. For the harsh treatments i gave before, im sorry. I just want to have a proper conclusion of how we were, and how we could be. I know things wont go my way because of your stubborness, but all i wanna do is to try, even if chances are slim.

Life hasnt been easy after the toll, life hasnt been smooth after the call for an end. But i just want something thats the best for us and something that would keep us strong as friends. I wanna love your family and you equally AS FAMILY. Sigh. this is just such a heartache.

Thank God

I really want to get myself a new camera. Urghhhh.
Went to Picadally Circus and tried their famous Buffalo Wings.
Level 4, initially i was pretty terrified, was afraid that i would prolly burn the walls of my stomach. haha but little did i know that, I DID NOT!
Seeee, i can take spicy food. Well not only was it spicy, it contains a strong taste of tabasco sauce too. That prolly explains why it was sourish.
Then we had a M-POP session. Had some videos taken down, it turned out FREAKING HILARIOUS. hahah.

Oh anyway, back to the camera topic.
And so i said, i really want to get a compact camera, like REALLY. not that the fujifilm one isnt good. Just that i felt that i wanted to have a digital cam, a compact cam, a DSLR in future, fisheye maybe.. Well. just lomography please..

oh well .. we'll just see how things go.

Anyway, the wedding yesterday was GREAT, i got to catch up with my old friends. everyone is doing so well now and i just cant help but to feel happy for them. Yet everyone was still the same! Awwww i just miss them all over again. So as we're at the wedding, they were playing some indian songs, and i realised a overly mad woman, sitting next to me shaking her head and singing along with the song, while fiddling with her iphone. i couldnt help but to diss her. and even till now i am still dissing her. many might think this woman im talking about is a stranger to me. Noo wayy. hahaha, she is none other than, Vhiska Yoganandhini. Yes, this indian mama asked me to write about her. and there she have it.

OH.. before i even end this post, i would like to thank my cousin WEIWEI! hahaha, because she motivated me to blog this entry! FYI, its pouring cats and dogs outside. SICK MANN.

Vegetarian-ism

Does vegetarians know what food gives them the particular nutrients they need?

Does vegetarians know how to eat healthy?

Well i was reading through the papers (Credits to ST: MIND your BODY) this morning and this particular few pages caught my attention immediately and kept me reading on. I was certainly interested in this as my mom is a vegetarian herself and i am of course, concerned if she is taking in sufficient nutrients, what not.
Then as i was reading, it got me a little worried because being a vegetarian may not have a very healthy diet.

Many vegetarians may have negligence towards the deficiencies in certain nutrients. Which could actually lead to many serious illnesses in the long run.

Iron
Iron from plants aint as well absorbed therefore, this can lead to anaemia.
This can help! - Green leafy vegetables, figs, peas and broccoli

Calcium
Bones tend to get brittle over time if the body recieves insufficient calcium.
This can help! - Calcium-enriched beancurd aka tofu, broccoli, seeds, nuts, kale, bok choy and legumes

Protein
Plants lack certain essential amino acids, which are the key building blocks for the body.
This can help! - Legumes, soya, nuts, beans, seeds and substistute meat products

Vitamin B12 Most plant food lacks of vitamin B12 which is greatly needed for metabolic processes. Insufficient vitamin B12 may increase one's risk of dementia.
This can help! - Nutritional supplements

Omega-3 fatty acids
Helps to reduce the risk of heart problems and cholesterol levels.
This can help! - Walnuts, canola and soya

Vegetarians with kidney problems, should watch his/her potassium intake as leafy green vegetables and fruits like bananas and durians are high in potassium, as told by Dr Tan Seng Hoe from Gleneagles Medical Centre.

A damaged kidney is unable to regulate potassium levels and high levels can lead to irregular heartbeat.

Well, an alternative for kidney patients are to soak their vegetables for a few hours before cooking so as to reduce their potassiun levels. As for those who prefer to eat raw vegetables, seeds and fruit, be very careful of unhygenic food preparation and the risk of food poisoning, warned by nutritionists.

Many people may be wondering what is vegetarian? How come i heard of fruitarian, lacto-ovo etc.

Well.....

Omnivore
Eats both plants and aminal-based food. That is what most people are doing, with a high number still having a high-meat, high-fat diet.

Lacto-ovo- vegetarian
Eats eggs and diary products in addition to plant-based food, but no meant, poultry and fish.

Lacto-vegetarian
Eats diary products in addition to plant-based food, but no meat poultry, eggs and fish.

Vegan
Eats only plant-based food. No meat, poultry, fish, eggs and diary products.

Fruitarian
A vegan diet but with only fruit, nuts and seeds.

Raw food eater
Usually vegetarian diet with uncooked food or food not heated beyond a certain temperature. Food such as fruit, vegetables, nuts, seeds and sprouted grains and beans; more rarely pasteurished dairy products and even raw meat and fish may be eaten.


RAW FOOD EATER ------> WEIRD. urghh.

Hair Loss

Are you fretting over the loss of your hair???
Or wondering how to increase your hair growth???




I have come across people who are suffering from hair loss, slow hair growth, balding head and receding hairline problems. Often a time, these are the problems they'll always worry about.




FRET NOT!!

Here are a couple of ways that could help!




6 Natural Ways to Increase Hair Growth

1. Do scalp shifting
- Using pads on your fingers, firmly place them all over your scalp and move your skin in a circular motion. Do this for the next 5 to 8 minutes.

2. Put red bell pepper on your head
- The spiciness of this fresg herb will speed hair growth byover 50%. Put a few slices in boiling water for about 10 minutes, then let it cool for the next 15 minutes. Next apply it on your scalp for about 30minutes, lastly, rinse it off.

3. Eat more protein
- Hair is made out of protein, therefore, by taking more protein you are promoting rapid hair growth. Food such as fish, chicken, cottage cheese, whey, peanut butter and steak are high in protein.

4. Take a Biotin supplement
- Biotin works great for your hair, skin and nails. Currently, there isn't any toxicity levels known for Biotin so it is BEST to take the high potency supplement of 5000mcg per day.

5. Take Magnesium supplement
- Just like Biotin, Magnesium is hair food. It helps with nerve stimulation and also relaxes your muscles.

6. Drink 6 - 8 glasses of water daily
- Sometimes the body will hold substances that harms your hair's natural growth and balance. So it is best to clear the toxic and clean out your system everynight. Simply drink 1 - 2 glasses of water before bed. Too much will cause puffy eyes and water retention.




Food that Stimulate Hair Growth

1. Eggs
- High in Biotin, vitamins that your high need to stay healthy. It is also very high in Protein. Try adding eggs into daily eating plans. Not too much egg yolk though.

2. Lean meat
- Chicken and tuna are both high in Protein which is very important for your hair. Eat at least 50 calories of tuna on a daily basis.

3. Vegetables
- High in vitamins that contains Zinc, Magnesium and Calcium.

4. Whole grain
- Rich in Zinc, vitamin B and Iron. ( For people who has a hetic scedule)

5. Carrots
- Rich in vitamin A.




How To Reverse Balding & Stimulate New Hair Growth

1. Mix hot olive oil, honey and 1 teaspoon of cinnamon powder into a paste. Apply it over head before bath and leave it on for 15 minutes. This helps to stimulate scalp to grow new hair.

2. Apply a mixture of aloe vera with herbal powder triphala to the hair for a period of time. (3 - 6 months) This enhances the speed of growing new hair.

3. Scrub the bald/balding portion with onions till it beomes red. Then apply honey. This gets blood flowing more freely to your scalp, nourishing and strenghtening your hair follicles.


Good Luck in making your hair grow! I hope this research is helpful!

Act of Betrayal

Betrayal Can Whreck You More Than You Can Ever Expect

If you can betray LOVE once, you can betray LOVE twice.

& it goes on and on and on.

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Most of the times when im having some quiet time alone or when i decide that i should be doing some self-reflections, i tend have a thousand and one things dashing through my mind. Such as family, friends, relationships, school and some others. It may be all general thoughts but these general thoughts were somehow converted into day-to-day basis conversation topics i have with people. The thing is, when i think about these i kinda throw questions back to it and in a way or another, i would be posted with another question sub-conciously. When i come to a point whereby im speechless that would be when i try to hit the sacks. So the moment i get up the next day, first thing that i will recall of was "what was i doing right before i went to bed last night?" And so it goes on and on, especially when i couldnt find or debate with myself for an absolute positive solution, this is when it turns into things i talk to people around me about.

So lately i have been seeing and hearing alot about BETRAYAL. What exactly is betrayal?

Betrayal is the breaking or violation of a presumptive social contract, trust, or confidence that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship.


Well, to put it in simple words it simply means by having done actions that is letting people down, it could be cheating on your partner, lying to your friends or leaking out confidential information to others.

What i would like to emphasise most in this entry would be LOVE BETRAYAL. And i thought to myself:

• Why people would actually resort to love betrayal?
• Why would people want to betray the people they love or rather claim they love?
• How can they bear to do things that would hurt their partner?
• Would people ever betray love for money?

All these boils down to their moral values and humanity. Many could actually come up with reasons like:

• "I betrayed my partner because he/she wasnt giving me the attention that i want."
• "Oh, i dont get the sense of security from him/her and this other guy/girl has it."
• "I dont dare to break up with him/her, im afraid he/she might not be able to take it."
• "He got no money and this other guy has, he can provide for me. But on the other hand i still need my plan B, so i should just date 2 guys at one go."
• "I cant bear to let go this relationship, afterall we've been together for so long. Yet i have already start to fall in love with this other guy/girl."

There are many many more excuses that i could mention but i'd rather not. In this situation, the problem lies in their humanity and morality. Betrayal should not even take place right from the start.

So when you feel that there is a problem with the relationship, first is to deal with it, settle all the misunderstandings or issues you have with each other. Give each other some time to think about the relationship, whether it could go far or should you put an end to it. When things are settle or talked over and the decision is to break up, take time to heal and when you are better, you move on.

If money is the reason why you betray, that makes you someone who can be bought over by money, putting your integrity, chasity and moral values below money. This would be an ultimate disgrace to all mankind.

Personally, I am very against love betrayal. I am very sure that no one would want to be betrayed by their partner and there would be tons of people who would agree with me that betraying your partner is a despicable act. It would only show others what kind of person you are inside.

Well, of course, people who does the betraying would have a million excuses and would definately deny that what they are doing does not equate to betrayal. But sad to say, people who dont betray would clearly have the ability to conclude if your actions are considered as an act of betrayal.

If you can betray once, what makes you think you would not have the tendency to betray again in the future? There are many good examples out there for you to relate to. If one feels that he/she did not do anything wrong and that what they are doing/did isnt/wasnt considered as betrayal, i can positively assure that these people would never be able to find true love. Because they have already lost the true meaning of love.

Empty Pockets

If only i could turn back time

Last night, while i was surfing the internet i came across a video and it made me realise that i actually regret not doing many things. If only i would have been more disciplined, more obidient and submissive. Well, i would still try to do it someday, but i hope im not too old to learn by then.

On a side note, maipig, maki, ilario and myself met up to send jackie off to the airport. It was an awful moment knowing that jackie was leaving and wont be coming back in the next couple of months. But all's well, it wasnt as bad as the first time he left for UK, i believe we have all learnt to control our emotions.

I miss maipig, maki and hana! okaye it was random i know. hahaha

Anyway i got to get back to packing my room. am gonna clear as many things as possible and take measurements, heading to IKEA to look out for any other furniture that i may left out! MAD EXCITED!

Happy Ang Family!

Ang Siblings!

Us with jiejie!

Us but shorting of Hana and Leon )):

Maki !!

Maipiggg

My Sweets!

Jackieeeeeee

Alright, got to goooooooo! oh!! i almost forgot that i need to bathe phiphi as well! bahhhhh!
CIAOS!

My Missing Act

I wish everyday would be a happy day

To all, Im sorry that I haven't been writing in for some LONG time. There are many explanations to that which i would refuse to speak about, but after sometime i understood that there should not be a thing that would stop me from blogging. For this, i sincerely apologise for my absence and would try my best to make regular posts and updates as well.

To people whom hasnt heard from me in AONS! I will starting work over at my pop's office starting from 1st of Feb 2010. I would also be undertaking Psychology come late March/early April. Yes yes, i know this is sudden but its happening. In the year of 2010, i hope to be a better daughter, sister, owner, friend, partner, etc to all my loved ones.

On the other hand, i also apologise for moments that i have neglected anyone. If there were to be anything that made any of you unhappy about me/my actions. I do hope that you could kindly speak it up and mention it to me. It has been a rough 2009 and i seriously do hope that things would turn into a better situation for me. I couldnt be happier having my family, to support my decisions and making it happen.

I am also very excited for my sister! She will be getting married end of this year, i cant wait and i am uber glad that she has found someone that is worth her spending the rest of her life with. Theres so much to be done and im all ready for it!

Last but not least, i would like to end this post with a BIG THANK YOU, to all who has been very tolerating of my behaviour and my nonsense! To all who has been supporting my as my friend. To all who has helped me with my problems, and lastly to all who has been there for me, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!